Daily Archives: September 18, 2011

It’s Day 12 of my detox and I’m not feeling my best today

Yesterday, I shared how good I was feeling on my FB page. Not sure what happen today – maybe its part of the toxine releasing process??? mayber but I’m mot sure that it’s the detox or my struggle with following it as closely as I like. I ‘ve forgotten a few drinks this week like my Kamut Water & Spirulina Cocktail. It’s a lot to keep up with (this is more than just eating vegan/raw vegan there are tons of green drinks & natural supplements I am taking like fenugreek which helps with sugar cravings). In addition, it’s been a pretty full week and the pressure is on with work and school so I feel like having some ice cream (I didn’t – I actually didn’t fall for the tempting Dove bars after our charity run that were available in abundance either)! I haven’t eaten any ice cream and in fact I’ve had some great vegan/raw vegan deserts. I do realize that I can be emotionally attached to food. Staying up studying late is great with a Monster Energy Drink with Doritos & Oke’ Doke Cheese popcorn – really shouldn’t have but I bought the doritos & cheese popcorn unconsciously and sat down to eat a large bowl. Then, after a few bites, here’s that little voice again “what are you doing???”So, I stopped. Well this is definitely not about beating myself up but it is raising my awareness. Guess, knowledge is power.

It may also sound crazy, but I haven’t been able to stay up late to study and that’s a little stressful. I realize that if I wasnt taking energy drinks my body would probably get the sleep it needs. I dont use them much, but enough to see the difference. Add, the detox and people praying for me to get rest and I feel like I’m living someone elses life. LOL. Yet, I must admit that this has been a source of stress – how will I get my studies done? What about the work I need to bring home? Lord, can you please squeeze 8 more hours in a day??? Well, one thing I do know that there is nothing to worry about and God always give me the victory in the end.

I know there are many people who don’t want to admit their shortcomings or mistakes – not me. I use to hold on to these things like this because I didn’t want people to judge me or see my weakness. I had been beat down enough in life so I figured why give people the fuel to do it some more.Then I became free of caring about what people think and I also realize a pathway to personal growth is change, transpareny & humbling accepting your current condition so that you can seek positive change for life long implementation. Change start with being honest with oneself and others – none of us are perfect but we can strive to improve our lives daily. I realize that when I am weak then I am strong. In other words, I use my weakness for personal enlightenment and I’m reminded not to do things in my own strength – I look to God who is the strength of my life!

I love being transparent. In fact, I only hope that more people would take the mask off that they’re wearing – it’s a beautiful thing to just be you. When you have a personal realization that you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God with a divine purpose from moement you were formed in the womb you are free to be you.

Today I made a raw sandwich. I did not make the eggless salad, but I figured that I can make the sandwich to my liking if I purchased it and made it home. This is an eggless sandwich that contains the following items;

- eggless salad

- raw mustard

- cajun raw bacon (eggplant)

- alfafa sprouts

- white onion

- tomato

- english cucumber

- cracked black pepper

- raw garlic/onion bread

This was actually pretty good, but it was hard holding it all together. I has this with a side of collard green & saurkraut salad w/ a few raw chips. Oh, today I started to sprinke green tea on my salad – just pop open the tea bag and sprinkle on your food (this has to be the one that you refigerate – tai chi) washed it all down with rejuvelac w/ about an ouce of mango kombucha mixed in.

This was pretty good meal & very satisfying!!

Life does not have to be bland because you do a vegan/raw vegan detox or decide to make this a lifestyle. This week I tried a few raw vegan deserts I two from RAW in the French Market for simply delightful. This book caught my attention since it has so many options, but I haven’t purchased yet….I think that I might. I thought the cover was a great sample of various delicious deserts you can have that I didn’t realize. Happy Happy Joy Joy!